It's been cool blogging on Live Journal in 2008.

But I think I'm shifting for good to Wordpress for 2009.

http://amatterofseconds.wordpress.com

And do visit http://s43.photobucket.com/albums/e394/aaronaik/Nan%20Hai%20Zhi%20Xing/ for the Nan Hai Zhi Xin Middle School Exchange Programme Photos. :)

VISIT.

New Blog. I may still continue to update this one though.

http://amatterofseconds.wordpress.com

When a passion dies down, it goes down in a matter of seconds.

Every single thing goes in a cycle.

When you stop exercising, your muscles shrink.
When you stop blogging, your readership drops.
When you stop planning, you fail.

Why do people actually stop thinking and let their brain die?

CAN SOMEONE WAKE THIS WORLD UP?

ASSHOLES.

Life seems so perfect when you don't have it
And when it returns, the guilt washes over you like it never ends

Forgive Me.

Sorry for not updating. Been really busy. I'll try though.

All these things that weigh so heavily on me.

I don't know if I'm able to hold on.

~~~~~

OK PEOPLE. I'M BACK. HAHA,

I've been away for quite a while that's why I didn;t update. Yeah.

Talking to Kiew Ray now on MSN. xD

Today was Annual Cross Country for our school. Something I actually looked more forward to than my results slip.

I waited with all the competitive runners in the foyer. The feeling was just normal for me. I didn't know why. I wasn't pressured neither was I worried. I had one goal in mind: To get a MEDAL.

I saw the Sports Class people. They were like wearing FBTS, Skins and whatever sports apparels you can think of. I saw the Cross Country boys. They all looked so calm. I saw those that were not in both categories but still ran fast. They also looked calm.

I know this kinda event is not a big deal to many of the people out there in my school, but to me it was. I trained hard. Ever since Sec 1 after the X-Country @ Maritchie (sp?). I told myself I was gonna get a medal in Sec 2. But alas, Sec 2 didn't have any.

Then came Sec 3. The Sec 1s, 2s and 4s ran. I heard some of the timings and everything. I started to worry. I knew I had no chance. But my friend messaged me: "No matter how pro your challenger is, with determination can already". I was inspired by that. I ran almost every weekend in the morning. I ran with Yu Fan when I had the chance. I tried running wherever I can, whenever I can. I had to train to get the results.

Thus came this day.

We moved to the starting line. We started. Yu Fan paced with me. I tried to overtake some of the people but couldn't until the crowd sort of dispersed. When we reached the sand area, I was still doing ok and started to overtake a lot of people; and some of the good runners.

Throughout the whole race, the only thing I was thinking about was: Get into Top 20. Don't let your efforts go to waste.

I ran and never stop. By this time, I was pacing with Zi Zun. We were more or less even. Both of us were trying to catch up with Ernest but somehow didn't manage to.

Then came the last part.

Zi Zun sprint. I sprint and tried to keep up with him. I heard someone from behind catching up. I quickened my pace. So did Zi Zun. We were reaching the end. Zi Zun was still ahead of me by a bit. But alas, I lost to him by a tat bit. 

That was when I heard someone say:" 19, 20, 21". Someone else said :" No got another guy in front". Those statements made me skeptical, made me twitched. I wasn't sure whether I'll get the medal.

I reached back school. The prize presentation started soon after the Mass Runners came back.

"In 20th position, from (insert house here) we have (insert person name here)." 

Applause. It wasn't me. So I was like "That's it. It's over for me" And I looked at the winner. Isn't that guy behind me when me and Zi Zun finished the race? Why did he get a medal?

"In 19th position, from (insert house here) we have (insert person name here)." Isn't that guy the 30 something position who lost to Joseph. Why did he get a medal? (PS. He returned the medal so I don't think it was a big deal)

Looking at the winners collect the prizes, it was like a thousand arrows piercing me. I had to put in so much effort just to get into the Top 30 and yet I couldn't win a single shit. On the other hand, I was kinda happy for Sebastian, Ryson and Afi (who freaking got 4th!!!), Azmi and Ziyad for winning the medals.

I felt shitty the whole day. And it got worse when I got my results back.

If only I had put in more effort, If only I had studied harder.

If only. There were so many "If Only's" I could think of. But what's the use? I could never turn back time to change the situation. =(

I felt like SHIT the whole day. Even when we were celebrating Ernest birthday @ ASTONS @ Katong.

Only when the same friend messaged me. The message said (REPHRASED) :" Don't think so much lah. Just go home and have a good rest. Then tomorrow morning will be a good day".

It struck me like a chord. And it struck hard. I was always advicing people to be happy, to stay positive, to stay optimistic. And yet, I couldn't go it. Who was I to tell people what to do when I can't even accomplish such a thing? Even Zi Zun didn't mind. I had done my best. Who cares seriously whether I won or not? In fact, I felt like this run was my best performace throughout the years in VS.

And I realised that God was there in the form of a good friend. It never crossed my mind that God was with me during the run only until I received the message. "Tomorrow morning will be a good day" was the same as what God said in the Bible. "Don't worry about tomorrow" because "he has the plans for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you".

I'm still physically, emotionally and mentally drained though.

But I guess tomorrow will be a brand new day. =)

I've to thank Joseph, Leroy and whoever who asked if I was ok and everything. And to Yu Fan and Ryson for all the encouragement and stuff for today's run esp. Yu Fan who was more or less a running buddy to me. xD.

Next year. I promise next year I'll leave my mark.

HAHA. LOL.

Wednesday. WOOT.
 

Crazy day man! Went out with, let's see.

Wei Loong, Yun Sol, Sidney, Yun Han, Yu Fan, Yi Qi, Yong Jie, Andres & Ernest! A LOT OF PEOPLE RIGHT. Haha. I went home first cos the PSL EXCO had interviews so we decided to meet at 1 plus. Then went over to LJS and eat. Went to buy tickets and then go ARCADE after getting rejected to playing pool.

I had tons of fun at the arcade. HAHA. So fun! =)

Then movie.

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I was very full after the nachos and so i didn't have dinner.

in the end, only the hougang guys went back. haha. we didn't have the freedom to stay up so late. When we reached Hougang, i waited with Yong Jie for his bus and like talked to him.

THURSDAY.

Haha. Zhong Yun and Joseph came my house to play XBOX cos I had to take my warranty card and then we went Funan.

IT WAS FUN talking to them. HAHA.

Joseph got his Zen Mozaic. I'm like really jealous his parents so nice to him lah. HAHA.

Friday. Nothing much lor. Except the MT paper. =.="

It's been a CRAZY WEEK.

Yeah. I mean last week. All the major papers and stuff. I'm glad it's over. But that's that. Not all my papers are done. There's one more tomorrow. And I've to do very well for my MCQs for Biology or I'll fail overall. HAHA.

Anyway. Slack time throughout the weekends. I studied a fair bit on Saturday though.

Sunday. Met Ryson for breakfast at Tampines Interchange where I caught sight of Farhan and *erhmm* having breakfast at Mac. He was leaving while we were just entering. HAHA. And he was like "Happy Birthday Wei Jian". Zzz. He had to make it so obvious it was his birthday.

Speaking of birthdays...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 
FARHAN
AND MY BUDDY YONG KANG!!! =)

It's on Sunday actually. Haha.

Anyway, I ate Hotcakes which I hadn't had for let see, more than 5 years? HAHA. Long right. I'm always eating Sausage McMuffin and stuff, never ever ate Hotcakes until yesterday. Walked over to Dion's house where Darren cell and our cell was already there. Rachel Kee and Lynn were studying so they didn't come.

After cell, we didn't go for lunch though. Slacked around. They were playing cards while Ryson and I were versuing Summer Games. Judy was teaching Sharon how to play the guitar. LOL. I need to brush up my guitar skills asap.

Yep. Praise & Worship was really good together with Pastor Pacer's sermon. It was like entertaining. Haha. Went for lunch with Rachel TLW, Rachel TLY, Judy and Ryson. I was like really surprised my mom didn't stop me from going out with the gang cos she usually does. T.T Say what waste time and everything.

Yeah. They kept saying my wanton looked like tissue paper. =.=" Basket. Haha.

The four of us excluding Judy who had to go home went to Tampines Mall to CD Rama to look for CDs. Then I had to go home. Zzz. Damn early lah.

MONDAY

Physics Paper 1 was ok. Not hard, not easy. Went breakfast with Dzafir, Caleb,Yun Han and Jun Rong. Azmi, Quinn, Damien, Bih Yau and Bing Yu joined us. Then went over to Joemil to cut hair. He was freaking late.

Left for home. Picked my sister and then use computer to send Ryson Jay Chou's new album songs. And he and Rachel fights on MSN like World War 8. HAHA. I was a spectator. xD.

Anyway. Today's paper was also ok. Not that bad.

ONE MORE DAY!

And visit entertainmentunwind.blogspot.com

HAHA. =)

I feel so lousy. Like a complete loser. After the stupid things I did.

What if I could turn back time? Will anything change?
What if the smart people were born dumb? Will anything change?
What if dumb people were smart? Will anything change?
What if handsome people were born ugly? Will anything change?
What if ugly people were born handsome? Will anything change?
What if internet was never invented? Will anything change?

So many what if's. Yet it seems so hard to decipher what life is.

The question is:

What if I never existed? Will anything change? Will it make a difference to you? WILL IT?

Yes. Screwed for Geography and Biology. Let's not talk about it.

I think Yu Tian really made sense.

Whose taking the exams?
Me

Whose going out with friends?
Me

Whose taking the 'O' levels me?
Me.

Whose moral obligation is it to do well in examinations?
Me.

I know my parents want me to do well but somehow the more they interfere, the more vex I get, the more I can't focus. I wonder when will they realise to let me go on my own.

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The Chemistry Paper wasn't as hard as I expected. HAHA. Though I did lose quite a bit of marks. Hoping to get it back from my MCQ which will greatly help for all my SCIENCES if I did put in some effort. =.="

Chinese and English Paper 2. Kinda hard though.

E-Maths Paper 1 wasn't that hard. But Paper 2. Freak. I didn't finish. RYSON! You're crazy. How can Paper 2 be so-so for you? HAHA. Pass my some of your genius for A-Maths!!! xD. And I've to thank all those who have been encouraging me and stuff. It's been great to know that you guys back me up and I get moral boaster from it. HAHA. And Aldrin for giving me the "Die Liao" smile/sign before and after every paper. xD.

I'm addicted to KPop. HAHA. Ok. More of Tae Yang's songs.

WEI LOONG. xD.

Heroes is freaking good. Can't wait for the next few. Ugly Betty's getting nicer by the minute. And Wizards of Waverly Place. Selena Gomez is super cute when she acts. Better than Miley Cyrus.

Oh wells. Time to study. =.="

i'm forgiven because you were forsaken
i'm accepted you were condemned
i'm alive and well
your spirit leaves within me
because you died and rose again
i'm sorry. please forgive me.

Eat You Up (BoA)

COURTESY OF DANIAL.
HAHA. I don't like the verses but the chorus rocks. Seriously.

This is the American Version of the Music Video. It's not really nice. Just normal dancing and stuff.


The Korean's one better. =)


Then there's this band from Korea who sings both Korean and English songs. It's catchy but not really THAT nice.


I learnt about this band after listening to one of their singer, Tae Yang. His vocals totally ROCK TO THE CORE man. He's got the Jesse McCartney + Zac Efron + Chris Brown voice which is freaking awesome.

I love the lyrics. Meaningful. And he's dancing is freaking good.


This the English Lyrics.
Dialogue: "hello?" "yeah," "where ya' at? "I'm at the um.. library." "oh, alright." "do you have any time today?" "um.. sorry, I have a test" "ah, really? I see" "sorry, is that ok?" "it's alright, you can't help it." "sorry" "bye"

"It's been on my mind for a while."
"Gotta get this off my chest."
"Before it's.. too late."
"I can't letcha go."
"Ya gotta let it go."
"I can't letcha go."
"Ya gotta.. listen."

Just looking at you and smiling a few times a day,
I've told you hundreds of times, "you're the love of my life".
And I've told you, in this corrupt world,
You're the only one my restless mind can trust.

Though you thought I'd change my mind about you,
If you felt uneasy I smiled and told you that'd never happen.
In my endlessly wandering, hollow heart
The only place I can rest is in you but

I hate myself for having strayed from you.#
Even today I'm wrapped up in what I'm doing and erasing you from my life, "baby, baby."

Chorus:
*Even though I stray from you, don't you ever stray from me, "baby",
Even though I forget about you, don't you forget me, "lady".
Even though I drink and don't call,
Even if I briefly meet eyes with another girl,
Only look at me.*

Tonight you've waited for me 'til the break of day again.
You're talking to me through tears, saying I've changed.#
But facing you, my feelings for you are the same as before.
Though I soothe you countless times,

I'm gonna have a hard time without you.#
Sometimes I lose my breath just thinking about you.# ##(alternative fits the following lyrics better)#But sometimes you suffocate me (smother me).#

In endless fights and an endless sigh
The only place you can rest is in me.

But I hate myself for growing tired of you.#
Even today I'm smiling but secretly losing faith, "baby, baby."

*Chorus*

"Stop."

I know I'm being selfish,
But in the time I've been wasting every day, I've become corrupt like this, "baby".
I only want you to stay pure forever.
I want this with my whole heart, this is my faith in you,
Don't leave me 'til the day you die.

Even though I stray from you don't you ever stray from me.
Even though I forget about you, don't you forget me.
Even though I drink and don't call,
Even though I briefly meet eyes with another girl,
Only look at me.
Only look at me.

Even though I drink and don't call... (continue)
Only look at me.

I only want you to stay pure forever.
I want this with my whole heart, this is my faith in you,
Don't leave me 'til the day you die.

HAHA. I'm into KOREAN and JAPANESE music now. And I don't know why. xD

CRAP. I stayed up late last night to study Governance only to find out Bonding Singapore can come out alone. Then everyone's like saying Conflict won't come out and then some said don't trust them and then some said there's going to be a combination and everything. IT FREAKED ME OUT.

Thank Goodness Bonding Singapore came out. I don't know if I'm going to score for it but I've my fingers crossed esp. when I didn't finish my SBQ. The paper wasn't had. Just not enough time and too much things to write. English Paper's 1 is OK. But I hope my composition won't be marked down. It's kinda a slip shot composition.

Randoming with the Student Organisation Gang after the papers while I waited for Aldrin to go to Funan Digitalife Mall to fix the Chinese E-Dictionary. In the end, we realised we had to send it for repair. =.=" Sorry Aldrin!!! Anyway, we were talking like about school and stuff while having lunch/tea break at KFC.

MRT-ed home.

I'm watching Gossip Girl now and it's really damn nice. HAHA. I can't find Ugly Betty Season 3 Episode 2 "Filing For The Enemy" online. T.T

Anyway, Aldrin let me hear a quite old band M2M. I've heard a few of their singles but their whole album's really nice! =)



The Day You Went Away (M2M)
I'm sure most of you've heard this song before.
And I realised a lot of old songs are like super nice. No wonder Leroy loves them so much. HAHA.

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming ’bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
FOR ME THERE'S ONLY YOU
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we’ll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

The day you went away
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we’ve got ’til it’s gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I’ve been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away
The day you went away

I must say I actually had fun for once in class today. xD

But first,

HARI RAYA PUASA AIDILFITRI!

I hope I get the spelling right. xD

Hmm. Been rushing my revision stuff and I hope to get it done by tomorrow for the notes and stuff. Anyway, lessons were pretty much all about revision and stuff. Nothing special.

The Muslim Boys went off right after recess so Joseph sat with me. I guarantee you talking him is super fun. We were like crapping and talking about everything we could think of. And Kai Tai joined us during English. HAHA. =)

Ms Koh's like super nice. She gave us chocolates and a card for Children's Day. HAHA. xD.

SUMMER GAMES SO ROCK.

I'll see if I can put up some photos asap.

In the mean time, I'm Wizards of Waverly Place-ing! ^_^

I ran. And ran. And ran. Just to get rid of the pain. But it came back.

8min 30s. Possibly one of my worst timings ever. And I didn't stop. When I finally finished, my legs brought me to the stairs. 12 flight of stairs. Each step brought about excruitiaing pain, but worse still, the pain in my heart was like stabbing a million times.

You took my hopes and brought it high. Higher than the clouds and threw it down.

My heart was not shattered into pieces. It was TORN. With strength unmeasurable that tore it apart and the whole body felt the pain.

I cried before I slept. I wondered if I meant anything to you. When would you see me as that? And I cried. For the second time this year, over the same damn thing.

I told people to let go; but I can't even though it myself. What rights to I have to tell people what to do?

I wondered if there's any meaning. Maybe I'll just walk across the road and hope I get knocked down. But it's not right to think like that. So how?

I finally realised what this meant:

The person that you love the most has the ability to hurt you the deepest. ='(



SAVE YOU (Simple Plan)
I would do anything to save you.

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You’ll never know the way IT TEARS ME UP INSIDE TO SEE YOU
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANT YOU TO KNOW
I WONT' GIVE UP TILL ITS OVER
IF IT TAKES YOU FOREVER I WANT YOU TO KNOW

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It’s just skins and bones
There’s nothing left to take
No matter what I do I CAN'T MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER (Nor myself)
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANT YOU TO KNOW
I WONT' GIVE UP TILL ITS OVER
IF IT TAKES YOU FOREVER I WANT YOU TO KNOW

[The most meaningful part; but do you know I'll do this all just for you???]
THAT IF YOU FALL, STUMBLE DOWN
I'LL PICK YOU UP OFF THE GROUND
IF YOU LOSE FAITH IN YOU
I'll GIVE YOU STRENGTH TO PULL THROUGH
TELL ME YOU WON'T GIVE UP CAUSE I'LL BE WAITING IF YOU FALL
OH YOU KNOW I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANT YOU TO KNOW
I WONT' GIVE UP TILL ITS OVER
IF IT TAKES YOU FOREVER I WANT YOU TO KNOW
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (oh)

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Cell actually made me feel better in a way. And I really have to thank Aldrin for accompanying me to buy presents for my sister and Yong Kang. Feeling better now but I know the eMo-ness will come back; soon.

=(

In case you didn't know, I got Jordin Sparks new album already! My dad collected it for me. And they just delivered Will Pan aka Pan Wei Bo 未来式 album. WOOT. He's voice may not be nice but he's dancing and songs are so catchy. And I want his hairdo! HAHA.

I'll really have to buck up in my revision.

Anyway. Super fun to talk to Yi Wei. He's like super fun to talk to with his jokes and insights to things you'll never expect. HAHA. =) Thanks for listening dude! =]

Biology SPA. It started well. But my whole hands and table soon got the chemicals all over and it was damn disgusting. All the slimey stuff and everything.

RECESS. Thanks Weng Keong for letting me watch Heroes Season 3 Episode 2. Trust me. This 2 episodes totally owned the other seasons. It gets super gory, more detailed, exciting, scary and any positivi adjective you can describe it. It has gone to the next level. I can't wait for the next episode. And hot baba Kristen Bell won't be a regular cast. =(

English was like marking of other people's script. Joseph shift house to sit at our side. HAHA. After school, lunch and did some Biology notes before going over to have a meeting with Mr Maran and the heads of all 3 boards.

So here I am. Going to study.

Here's some songs!!! =) Self explanatory on why I put the songs!



Fly On The Wall (Miley Cyrus)
3rd Single from her debut album "Breakout". She doesn't sing that nice LIVE but it's a very nice & meaningful song.

You don't understand what it is
That MAKES ME TICK
But you wish you did
You always second guess, wonder if
I say yes but you just lose out every time

If you only KNEW WHAT I TALKED ABOUT
When I'm WITH MY FRIENDS JUST HANGING OUT
Then you'd have the inside scoop
On what to say, what to do
That way when you play the game
Baby YOU CAN NEVER LOSE

(Chorus:)
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall
ALL MY PRECIOUS SECRETS, yeah
YOU KNOW THEM ALL
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall 

YOU'D LOVE TO KNOW, THE THINGS I DO 
WHEN I'M WITH MY FRIENDS, AND NOT WITH YOU
You always second guess, wonder if
There's other guys I'm flirting with (No I'm not gay. But there's a hidden meaning why I highlight this)
You should know by now

If you were my boyfriend, I'd be true to you
If I make a promise, I'm coming' through
Don't you wish that you could
See me every second of the day
That way you would have no doubt
That baby I would never stray

(Chorus:)
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall
ALL MY PRECIOUS SECRETS, yeah
YOU KNOW THEM ALL
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall 

A little communication
That'll go a long way
You're getting misinformation
Too much he say she say

And what I say is
Come a little closer
And what I'm gonna say is

Don't You
Don't You
Don't You
Don't you wish you were a...
Hey!

(Chorus:)
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall
A creepy little sneaky little fly on the wall
ALL MY PRECIOUS SECRETS, yeah
YOU KNOW THEM ALL
Don't you wish that you could be a fly on the wall 

Here's one more. =3


Will Pan (路太弯)

我在这里计算终点的距离,
下一站,有没有更期待的结局.
眼,闭上眼,看不看的见过去.
看不看的见原来那个你和幸福的关系

路太弯,梦在转,错过的人已不在.
以为我能习惯一个人的安全感.
路太弯,爱在转,明知忘记会很难.
我一路上跌跌撞撞,却找不回拥抱的形状.

眼,闭上眼,看不看的见过去.
看不看的见原来那个你和幸福的关系

路太弯,梦在转,错过的人已不在.
以为我能习惯一个人的安全感.
路太弯,爱在转,明知忘记会很难.
我一路上跌跌撞撞,却找不回拥抱的形状.

付出过是不是就换的回希望
呼吸再乱,世界再宽
缘分毕竟太短

路太弯,梦在转,错过的人已不在.
以为我能习惯一个人的安全感.
路太弯,爱在转,明知忘记会很难.
我一路上跌跌撞撞,却找不回拥抱的形状.
我一路上跌跌撞撞,却找不回拥抱的形状.

Ever wondered why everytime we do something stupid, something bad, we feel so guilty?

Yet, we KNEW before hand that what we are going to do was outrageous, was stupid, was idiotic, was not to be done, shouldn't even think about doing it.

But we were tempted.

We were trialed.

We could not overcome the temptation and did it.

For that mere second of enjoyment and during the time we did it, it felt so good.

But a wave of guilt soon sweeps you off your feet as you "finished" executing the bad thing you've done.

Why?

 

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in you
I trust in you

I believe
YOU'RE ME HEALER
I believe
YOU ARE ALL I NEED
I believe
YOU'RE MY PORTION
I believe
YOU'RE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME
JEUSE, YOU'RE ALL I NEED

Nothing is impossible for you
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for you
You hold my world in your hands

I believe
YOU'RE ME HEALER
I believe
YOU ARE ALL I NEED
I believe
YOU'RE MY PORTION
I believe
YOU'RE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME
JEUSE, YOU'RE ALL I NEED

I believe
YOU'RE ME HEALER
I believe
YOU ARE ALL I NEED
I believe
YOU'RE MY PORTION
I believe
YOU'RE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME
JEUSE, YOU'RE ALL I NEED

I had a second chance. And I'll not waste it.

Never will I.

Whatever Shervin. xD

I guess today's one of those days where I'm really down; something I started experiencing this year. Increased school work? A *****? Friends? I don't know.

But I feel lost.


WELCOME TO MY LIFE (SIMPLE PLAN)

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And ON ONE UNDERSTANDS YOU
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be HURT
To feel LOST
To be LEFT OUT IN THE DARK
To be KICKED WHEN YOU'RE DOWN
To feel like you've been PUSHED AROUND
To be on the EDGE OF BREAKING DOWN
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While DEEP INSIDE YOU'RE BLEEDING

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be HURT
To feel LOST
To be LEFT OUT IN THE DARK
To be KICKED WHEN YOU'RE DOWN
To feel like you've been PUSHED AROUND
To be on the EDGE OF BREAKING DOWN
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever LIED STRAIGHT TO YOUR FACE
And no one ever STABBED YOU IN THE BACK
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
EVERYBODY ALWAYS GAVE YOU WHAT YOU WANTED
You NEVER HAD TO WORK IT WAS ALWAYS THERE
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be HURT
To feel LOST
To be LEFT OUT IN THE DARK
To be KICKED WHEN YOU'RE DOWN
To feel like you've been PUSHED AROUND
To be on the EDGE OF BREAKING DOWN
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be HURT
To feel LOST
To be LEFT OUT IN THE DARK
To be KICKED WHEN YOU'RE DOWN
To feel like you've been PUSHED AROUND
To be on the EDGE OF BREAKING DOWN
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Love Bug (Jonas Brothers)

What type of girl you like?
AB+

HAHA. xD. Nice one.

And Summer Games 3 is super nice! I'm going to thrash Aldrin soon.

Let It Rock (Kevin Rudolf)

WOOT. Cell-ebrations @ Swensens for Lynn's birthday.

Before that, school right? I actually felt super attentive today maybe because my mom made me sleep real early yesterday night. And my dad couldn't sleep in the morning so he drove me to school and I reached at like 6.30am? Everyone was like super shocked esp. Leroy and Wei Loong. Haha.

Geography lesson was by far Mr Ikwhan's most interesting one. HAHA. Once again, much crapping again by the guys seating on the left side of the class. xD. I actually think I can pass my Chemistry Test on Moles. HAHA.

Anyway. Went over to Hostel canteen to help Aldrin in his Chinese Project and waited for him and Ryson to go Tampines Mall. 197 -ed to Bedok and then took MRT to Tampines. Summer Gaming all the way. HAHA. Met David, Joy (and her friend), Jia Teck at the interchange and went over to TM. Decided to get her a mini cake from Polar Puffs.

Save You (Simple Plan)

Woah. This song rocks.

I'm Yours (Jason Mraz)

Sorry. I was looking up some stuff on Wikipedia on Simple Plan. HAHA

Demi Lovato's "Don't Forget" and S.H.E "F.M S.H.E" is out today! AHAHAHA. =)

OK. So much digressing.

Gonna Get Caught (Demi Lovato)

Yep. Went over to Swensens to meet Lynn and we took like super long to decide on what to eat. I ended up trying the BBQ Half Chicken which was super yucky for my taste. The pasta Ryson and Aldrin ordered was much nicer in flavour but not very filling. Throughout the whole meal we were crapping like A LOT. Esp. the guys. HAHA. Johan joined us later. Danial joined us when we were leaving the basement. HAHA.

And I didn't know what Brainfreeze was. xD

Believe In Me (Demi Lovato)

Gosh. The thought of those food makes me feel fat. I really need to start working out. I don't wanna stay skinny nor become fat. I want to build up my muscles. HAHA. Yeah. I'm not satisfied with a lot about myself.

Two Worlds Collide (Demi Lovato)

La La Land (Demi Lovato)

OK. ICE CREAM. HAHA. David complained that the ice cream was fattening so he didn't eat any. HAHA. Frosted Chocolate Malt rocks but if you are full you can't eat and enjoy it. HAHA. And sticky Chewy Chocolate was bitter but chocolatey. Me Like. xD

HAHA. More crapping again.
Anyway, Me & Ryson walked to the interchange to take bus and I missed 72 again. Luckily, another one came soon after. =.="

STUDY HARD PEOPLE.

EXAMS LIKE SUPER NEAR.

Two Worlds Collide (Demi Lovato)
Dedicating to Selena Gomez (Her BFF).

Here's to all my BEST FRIENDS. Thanks for being there for me! I know it may not really link but yeah. ;) And think GUY way. Not things that GIRLS face. Hey. It's explanatory right? =)

She was giving the world
So much that she couldn't see
And she NEEDED SOMEONE TO SHOW HER,
WHO SHE COULD BE.
And she tried to survive
Wearing her heart on her sleeve
And I needed you to believe

You had your dreams, I have mine.
You had your fears, I was fine. 
YOU SHOWED ME WHAT I COULDN'T FIND,
When two different worlds collide.

La dee da dee da

She was in her room, watching from far away.
She was given a role, never knew just when to play.
And she tried to survive
Living her life on her own
Always afraid of the throne 
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH TO FIND HOPE

You had your dreams, I have mine.
You had your fears, I was fine. 
YOU SHOWED ME WHAT I COULDN'T FIND,
When two different worlds collide.

She was scared
Unprepared.
Lost in the dark.
Falling Apart,
I CAN SURVIVE,
WITH YOU BY MY SIDE.
We're gonna be alright.
This is what happens when two worlds collide.

You had your dreams, I have mine.
You had your fears, I was fine. 
YOU SHOWED ME WHAT I COULDN'T FIND,
When two different worlds collide.

La dee da dee da

You had your fears, I was fine. 
YOU SHOWED ME WHAT I COULDN'T FIND,
When two different worlds collide.
When two different worlds collide.

Life backs to the NORMAL after all the celebrations and stuff. I'll upload the photos for today soon. Then I'll be on a hiatus unless I feel like blogging. =.="

BORING.